dead to me

In the meantime

In the meantime
Ill just sing the bird songs
In the meantime
Ill just sit and wait
Wait for the saints
For the calling
In the meantime

just tomorrow

removing the alarming red colored tape from my windows. enjoying the breeze that irene left for me. sleep. sleep. sleep. disaster followed me around for three days. it made my bones brittle with fear. cold. water. the warmth of my daughters arms around my neck. forlorn. my wife's kisses. gone. far away. escape. ill stay. i have no choice. fear. her old eyes couldn't comprehend. the wrinkles flooded with tears. can i take my pictures?will we loose everything? good job guys! great job! no food. hungry. my partner listens to the news. the news. the news. the news. the news. panic. fear. lets get away. the sirens. headache. dehydration. flooding. he stole our flag. that fucking crazy bastard. brooklyn accent. the rain. heavy rain. zeus is crying. stale cigarettes. the cabin fills with smoke. rain. wet uniforms. hands breaking. working. sweating. hunger. i want to cry but i cant. let me call her. will i die alone. i dont want to wake up. i dont want to see the flood. did we make it? did we make it? shhhh...silence of the lambs. shhhh. did we make it? i cant see. georgia moon. shakey bones. shakey graves. ill see my baby today. ill see my babies today. even the unborn. did she hear the wind? sunny side eggs and french fries. mothers touch. always warm. not like irene's. i feel renewed. woke up. woke up. the flood. no flood. i smoke the cigarette outside my door. the leaves have fallen. its not autumn. collect the branches. gather your tears.

banjo at my window

short video of some banjo playing that in actuality, doesn't sound like a banjo (for some technical reason). anyway i havent been blogging for some time now, and thought it would be a good way to start up once again.

i was hoping you would get a glimpse of someone looking out their window, hanging up clothes on a line, or screaming some bizarre brooklyn talk but what you can hear, is someone sweeping and some singing sparrows at the end of the video.

hope you enjoy!

im trying to take a nap

go away from my window

im trying to take a nap

i deserve this nap

last night i had barely 3 hours of sleep

you and the marketing clown

can go and shove it!

when was the last time you took a nap and dreamt

of a beautiful world?

where bills dont have to be paid

where the sky is forever blue

where i can play with Dakota

on the coney island sand everyday of the year

where i can stay home and make art and record those cloudy songs of mine

where i can enjoy some greasy burgers with my wife every evening for diner

and not gain a pound

where i can make love to my wife in the mornings, before i leave for work and come back at 12noon for more

dont bang on my window!

go away from my window!

im trying to take a nap!

and try to forget that i spend my daylight hours enslaved to your labor

go away you clown!

jose delhart (poem in the ambulance)

happenstance

Definition of HAPPENSTANCE

: a circumstance especially that is due to chance

in my life i have met some very interesting people through happenstance, that have helped me along the way. my good friend and EMT buddy Darren Lolk whom is a musician/artist/actor is an inspiration and a reminder of my goals and dreams while im at work; where i generally tend to forget what truly makes my heart sing. here is a youtube clip of some deleted scenes from "Cornelius" a movie Darren Lolk played a cashier clerk. "Cornelius" was directed by Giovanny Blanco another great artist/musician friend ive made along the way. enjoy!

what i saw today